Night Chat

Again I'm feeling awfully chatterish(is that a word o.O? Social!) and I don't have any to chat with! So I'm posting here again XD As always when I'm social and.. Well, you know the drill..

It's the 20th November now ^^ And I have so many plans o.o I'm starting to feel a little panic... How am I going to fit in with everything o.o? I'm of course talking about my dolls XD As usual! And my sewing projects have been many! But I've also begun on the story for them! And that is fun ^^ But I'm not taking my time to finish it -.- Well.. Anyway! Right now I'm sewing a piece for Julien (my oldest doll) and I've washed fabric today for that piece ^^ That's why it's taking so long time to do it -.- I would have begun with the project on friday, but I was overthinking and couldn't get a hold on my ideas before saturday. So that's why it's taking so long time. Also a private matter came up so my work was slown down even more. So I don't know when this is finished... I've beginning to think of the next project too.. I'm gonna sew a shirt for Loid(my second doll) but I also have to color it so that may take two days... If I work non-stop. I don't know if he needs new pants or not. I'll have to consider the time for that. Also I'm gonna sew something for a friend's doll which I'm borrowing over christmas and I don't know how much time that will take o.o Also I HAVE to sew them all santa-hats XD And no one can make me change my mind! Oh! And I have something for Yume too, and I don't know how much time that will make o.o

.... Why do I always have so many projects in mind -.-? Oh! And Julien is getting another outfit for christmas XD ... I know I should take it easy! But it's not that easy when you have a brain that searches for ideas all the time! Meow o.o When I wrote all that stuff that is waiting for me... I became very tired o.O Can't understand why XD But I think I'm gonna wrap this up.. I'm getting too tired and I need to sleep. But I can write again when I'm done with all that I have planned XD .... Or when I'm done with all the stuff I have mentioned! Because I have more than that planned for my dolls. But that's the stuff that needs to be done before christmas XD Yeah! Well... I'm gonna write here again!

Bye for now ^^ Wich me luck XD

Ghost of the Past

Sometimes I wish I could talk to you. I wonder how you feel.. If you're lost in a world where nothing makes sense. I wish there was a way I could talk to you without the actual talk. I can't say I miss you, but I still care about you. Thinking of you. Wondering about you. You said that you couldn't open up to anyone but me... I know that was a long time ago, but I kind of hoped that it was still true. You betrayed my trust. You made me feel horrible everytime I spoke to you. You lied to me in several occasions and blamed it on your trust issue. Everything changed and you kept hurting me over and over again. And I forgave you over and over again. I told you I couldn't live without you and it felt like you took advantage of it. Like it didn't mattered what you put me through because I'll always forgive you. You walked over me more than a hundred times. And it feels like you don't even realize that. I tried to tell you, but you wouldn't listen.

You got so panicked when I told you that we shouldn't speak to each other anymore. You were shocked and.. I think I told you more than you wanted to hear. But that was the only way I could get you to listen to what I was saying. But I'm not the only victim in this peace. I haven't treated you the way you deserved, I would've given everything to make you smile again, but... in the end whatever I tried seemed to be wrong. It didn't mattered what I said or did, I couldn't make you smile again. It crushed me.

You don't know how happy I become when I see your name on my "visit-list". At least that shows me that you're still alive. That makes me happy. I'm sorry that I didn't stood up for you more than I did. I know that it wasn't just I who lost a friend. You did too. I'm hoping that you'll find better friends that can treat you better than I did. I'm hoping you'll feel better soon too.

I'm never gonna forget you.

Sewing day in and day out

Hi everybody! Have you missed me ^^? *paus for everyones screams* ALL RIGHT! I'm sorry I haven't posted anything here o.o Or at my movieblog.. I have reason for the movieblog however ^^ I have worked my ass off all day for a month! So I haven't had the time to see new movies. Well.. I saw that.. Not without my daughter but that was based off a true story so write about that seemed out of place o.o So I couldn't write about that... But it seems that I'm having more time now so... Hopefully soon, this week, I'll have a new movie to write about.

Why I haven't written here: Because I don't have anything to write o.o Nothing is happening in my life (I know that seems unlikely but it's true o.o) I'm just sewing, eating and sleeping.. EVERY DAY! Just sewing, eating and sleeping. Sewing, eating and sleeping... Nothing else is happening! So to write about that seemed compeletly pointless! ... Since I'm writing it on my FB XD Haha! But yeah...

So this is what I've been doing:

Four shirts, one hoodie, one skirt, one pair of pants, two pair of underwear, one stuffed animal (Which I'm not doing again) and a bag. Every piece took three days to make and then I sew from 11 am to 1 am... I'm really tired XD

This is what I have left:

One pair of armwarmer, bedcovers (as well as a bed) and one skirt, PLUS three halloween outfits. I'm gonna learn how to sew socks too so that I have left. After that I'm gonna play some games and watch movies because I can't sew anymore for a while o.o My body is shaking because it's so tired from all the sewing!

Oh! And this is all for my BJD-dolls ^^ So you see why I haven't written here in a while XD? Why I don't have time to watch movies? Litterly when I wake up I start sewing until I go to bed. And why do I do it? Because I love it and I have a real talent for it XD So don't feel sorry for me. It's my choice to do this :P

Well.. That was my lunch... Now I'm gonna get back to my sewing :P The last shirt is done, I just need to wait for the paint to dry and now... I'm gonna begin with the skirt. Bye!

Endless rambling and the ending of a normal day

Right now... I'm a wreck. I want someone to talk to but.. I can't talk to anyone. Either I get a silly answer like "ok o.o" which is NOT what I need right now.. Or I get something like "I'm gonna punch everyone whos mean to you!" or "Just screw them it's nothing to get worked up from" .. Or they would change the subject and make it about them. Not what I need now either.

I shouldn't really write this here, but... I'm lonely. And everytime I feel lonely I turn to this blog because somehow typing here makes me feel better. Probably because I get the stuff out of my head or I'm just so chatty so I get to a more cheerful topic and... You who read this blog know how chatty I can be and how I'm like a Simpsons episode. Start on one topic and end on a completely different note.

I'm kind of frustrated right now. There's a person I've been starting to talk to who says she's cutting herself and she's going to kill herself and it's so "poor me poor me!" I can't hols myself from trying to reach out to them. I say harsh things but they're mostly, MOSTLY true and I'm just trying to make them realize that what they're doing is incredibly selfish and no one is going to endure that.

I've always done it and I've always succeeded (incredibly enough) ............ OMG! *reading something* Now I'm so mad my hands are shaking! I wanna punch something! Thank God for Wii right?

Leaving that topic now! I have my thoughts on a new novel... Yeah, everytime I leave a topis it's about work. Can I help it that I love my work so much XD? Anyway! I've already(I think) given away that my next novel is going to be a real life romance. And I'm really excited on writing it. I know how I'm gonna begin it and... I've said all that stuff on my FB so I'm not typing it here again. If you've missed it.. Bad for you XD

But I still haven't finished the novel I'm writing now.. And I love the characters in it. I've been thinking of writing them both at the same time but I know how it gets -.- I write the other, got stuck in that and I never finish the other... That always happens... So.. I'm gonna finsih this one until I start with a new one. There's just one problem (Isn't it always?)

... But I'm not gonna tell you XD Hihi! I don't want to talk too much about it! That's mostly why I'm repeating myself over and over XD Yeah.. See how the smileys are coming up now? I'm starting to calm down XD All thanks to this blog!

Well.. I'm gonna wrap this up now... Just saying one last thing. Thanks for reading my blog. Thanks for all my followers who endure my long posts and endless rambling XD

... Maybe I should start on the next novel o.O I have so much inspiration for it. Hmm..

Bye! ^^ Mata ne!

Movieblog!

Read my movieblog too XD See me write nonsense about a movie I've just saw. It's really fun! And if you're following this blog you should read that too! All kinds of movies and recomendation! ^^

www.kagismovieblog.blogspot.com

From a Fan!

LM.C again!

It's been a while since I've mentioned them so Scchh!
I'm missing them a lot, yes I do. I still remember all the good times we had *space wannabiez* .... OK! I haven't talked to them only went to those concerts but still!
I want them to come back to Sweden! But I'm not gonna nag about it no.

...

I WANT THEM TO COME TO SWEDEN
I WANT THEM TO COME TO SWEDEN
I WANT THEM TO COME TO SWEDEN
I WANT THEM TO COME TO SWEDEN
I WANT THEM TO COME TO SWEDEN
I WANT THEM TO COME TO SWEDEN
I WANT THEM TO COME TO SWEDEN
I WANT THEM TO COME TO SWEDEN
I WANT THEM TO COME TO SWEDEN
I WANT THEM TO COME TO SWEDEN

... Not nagging XD Nope!
But they're so awsome! I wonder when they're gonna release their new album. Are they even working on it or are they gonna release a new single first? I don't know... Although I DO know that everything that they put before us is gonna be AWSOME!

... Ok, I'm gonna stop now before I lose everyone who keeps track of this blog :P Have a great day everyone! Always happy when you think of LM.C! ^^

Movie Blog

Since no one commented on my blog I guess you wanted me to set this up XD Well! You get your wich! I have created a movie blog where I'm gonna talk about the movies I've seen like I've done with those I mentioned earlier.. So! Here's the link:

http://kagismovieblog.blogspot.com/

Hope you'll like it!

Super Duper Galaxy

Wow!

Yesterday I got my hands on Super Duper Galaxy.... I think you can guess what I listen to ALL DAY yesterday XD I didn't listen to anything but Super Duper Galaxy and Bad Spider.... OK, for a little variety I listen to Let me' Crazy also :P And every song in that album. I had lots of fun! I love that single! And I can't wait for them to return to Sweden!

Also.. I want to donate money to Japan, but... If I do that I won't have any money for food.. So that's sad.. But I can be there for them by heart! Ganbatte Nihon! Ganbatte!

A BIG message!

Ok! I've just watched Doug Walkers Top ten WORST Clichés and I'm SO hoping that someone important reads this!

I want to make something clear before he destroys my way of seeing movies! Movies is likeable because they can go to those stories that WON'T happen in the real life! That's why at least I like them! If I wanted to see something that could happen in the real life... I would live it! Movies steps into this other dimension of something unreal and I like that! Because to me life sucks (Sorry, I love living and hoping I could do more of it!) and movies is the thing I watch when I want to step put of reality! If Doug makes such an impact on directors and writors that they don't do this anymore... We wouldn't have fantasy, science fiction, action, animation there is a lot of genres that disappears because of making it more like "this wouldn't happen in the real life".. NO!! Don't do that! Ok?! I want those clichés in movies because they won't happen in the real life! I can't have a romantic life but at least I can get the experience through a movie! I won't be able to see a wonderful world like in Avatar in the real life but I can stil get the experience through a movie! This is why movies where made for Gods sake! If you take that away what do you want to watch movies for?! Just passing time?! NO!

So please! Directors and writers.. Don't listen to him and cut off on those clichés! We love them, that's just his personal opinion! So PLEASE! Don't change anything!

I probably am digging in this too deep, but.. IF some important listen to him, missunderstands his message and does what he wants... I can't live with that... Sorry! I would punch Doug litterary, if he is the cause of that because of his video! I'm hoping to God that no one is taking it seriously, or if they do I'm hoping they'll see my message, I know somebody is reading this blog and if you agree with me.. Put this on your blog too because I think more people need to understand what Movie really stands for!

I apologize if you feel abandon

I feel a little... I don't know.. Like I've abandon this page. I know it was only a week ago I posted a post here... Sort of.. But in that I said I forgot to post it.. I have other sites that I write on so I write there. I'm so sorry! I'll try to think of this page as well!

Well! Why I feel like this is that I usually post about movies I've watched and tell you how I feel.... I've watched three movies without telling you what I think about them here! I've done it on other pages but not this one! ... Maybe you don't want to listen to my opinion on those movies but I post it anyway! I posted on that Uwl movie, I posted on Princess and the Frog and Perfume and.. There are a lot of movies on this blog... Maybe I should put a different blog up to tell you what I think about these movies o.O ... Hey, that's an idea... I get another blog to complain about, but maybe I should look into it. I probably WILL miss some things here and there but.. still.

I'll think of it some more. But right now I'm optimistic about it. Or maybe there are too much movie blog already so you don't want one more? I don't know how you think right now so I can't do much about that :P THERE IS A COMENTBUTTON IF YOU HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY ABOUT THIS! Yeah! It's right there! Under here! So if you don't say anything... I'm gonna do it! Yeah XD Think about that!

Concerts

I forgot to mention something! I knew it... Well! The 12th April I was on the Miyavi concert, no I'm not goiung to talk about it because I've already have. No.. I'm going to talk about my condition. You see, I was worried that my chest would hurt like the last time I was on a concert... But it didn't! I was so happy when I discovered that! I can go on a concert again! Now LM.C can come to Stockholm again and I can enjoy their concert XD .... Please?

I know their recent concerts have been canceled because of everything that has happened in Japan. And I can uncerstand that. I'm not saying that they should be here now! No no.. No one will be happy if they just abandon everyone they care about. I'm saying that they should come to Sweden when they feel ready. I'm hoping they can come here soon because I miss them!

And I feel so bad for Miyavi that had to lissen to girls giggles when he talked about Japan. I was so moved by that speech! It was SO beautiful! Miyavi was worried in his heart for his people and still he didn't cancel his tour and gave us a concert we will never forget and what does he get for a thanks? Disrespectful kids that giggles on a silent moment for everyone who's struggling through all these natural disasters.. I feel so bad for him. But still. It was a good show! Thanks a lot Miyavi!

Buffy the Vampire Slayer

This perticulary post holds the ending of the Buffy the Vampire Slayer serie. If you don't want to know it and haven't seen it yet, don't read this post!

I love Drusilla. I agree that she is a work of art and the actor plays her really well! Her accent is fake by the way. Most of the characters accent in Buffy are fake. But anyway.. Drusilla. When she was human Angel killed her family. Drusilla had visions even as a human and after Angel killed her family she became closer to her religion. She often heard that the visions vere a curse and therefore she was cursed.
In one scen she talks to Angel who she thinks is a priest at the time and she says that she doesn't want to be bad. That always gets to me because I know how she'll turn up. Angel turns her into a vampire after all this. It's a pure work of art. I'm sorry that I'm so fascinating about this XD But I REALLY love her! She is crazy and what Angel did to her.. It's so well thought. And again.. The actor, love her! Well.. I haven't seen her in anything else but I love her in Buffy. Which the rest of the crew did too because they kept bringing her back (I know this because I'm a nerd and watched every commentary episode) And again I'm sorry if I sound a little creepy but she is so wonderful XD Don't we all love the crazy vampires?

Oh! And I think Drusilla and Spikes love is MUCH better than his and Buffys! He just becomes such a wuz after he falls in love with her XD Nope! He and Drusilla are much better couple! That's my favourite couple by the way.. Theirs and Willow and Tara.. Tara is another lovely character in the Buffy serie. I'm also a fan of Tara :P

April 1 and "Perfume: The story of a Murder"

April 1 is done... Did you survive? You didn't? Aaaw... That's a shame. But isn't it kind of cool to be a ghost? I mean.. You can do so much more! And you're not human so you don't have to restrain yourself to being so polite all the time. You can just be evil without have people stare at you, wondering if they should call the cops or a mental institution. Ah, the dead life... It's so nice to dream about it. ... Well no, because then you have to wake up from that happy scenario and remember that all of that life is an illusion. Just temporary.

But! Enough of that ^^ I've always hated April 1. All those April Fools stuff.. I hate it. I haven't always been tricked, not many people have tried to trick me so I guess that doesn't really count. But when people do.. I turn into a naiv fool who believe everything they say. I usually don't trust people (Hard to believe when I just said that I was naiv like a fool, but yeah! I believe people often and is that a bad thing? I don't think so.) Still! I hate this day. So today I intended to avoid it. It went very well actually! I stayed away from the computer and didn't talk to any of my friends. I explained it to them of course! I explained why I didn't spoke to them for a whole day so we are good ^^

I'm saying a lot about a whole day o.O As I've said before.. I can't keep it short XD But I think I need more to say that has more meaning that all of it above so here it comes....

I'm watching "Perfume: The story of a Murder", I've seen it before and I have to tell you.. I am extremly disappointed on this movie. The story itself I think is good, but I think it's because of bad acting, bad directing and bad ending that got it all screwed up. When I saw the front of the cover I thought about something like.. He was luring his victims with this perfume. Made them come to him, he charmed them and then killed them. The reason I would find out in the movie.. And what did I get? A little boy who didn't know what he was doing and he was just curious! The way he was born was just hillarious and it's the only humor I would understand but kind of set me off because of the title and the front cover. It just didn't fit in my head. But then as the movie goes on I asked myself "what kind of movie is this?" Although it keept my intressest for a long time and that's good. I like some parts but as I said the ending.. What the hell happened?

I'm gonna tell the ending here so if you don't want to know or something like that, don't read more.

Now the TV is showing where he confronts this perfume... guy... What did he do? Tell the recepie for perfumes by smelling them? Anyway! The ending.. Everyone just starts to have sex with each other after smelling this perfume? What the hell is that!? Who the hell came up with that? Was it just like after that person had sex he/she just.. This smells like sweat and sperm... I can make a movie out of this! I mena... Eu! That's just sick! And when he uses the whole bottel they eat him? ... What the... What?! From having lusts they can't controll to hunger? The person who came up with this must have been really twisted while making that up! I mean come on! What the hell happened? The story was really intressting until that part.. It just destroyes it for me. Can't really explain it. It's just a horrible ending. I puke over it! Bluh! Well.. That was that. Now it's commercials and I'm typing the last thing for... tonight. Good night!

Woho!

"And finally, a shout out to Kouzetu in Sweden, who is awesome" - Derek Landy's answer to my comment on his blog

Miiih! That certainly did my day XD Hihi! I have got to get those new books of his o.o

The Legends of the Guardians; The Owls of GaHoole

What? What just happened? Oh! I seemed to have been enchanted by the animation of the movie that I completely missed it!

I watched this movie... Yeah... It's a very long title of a movie so I'm not repeting it again! It was about this owls.. Oh! No! Wait a minute.. It wasn't! This movie don't have anything to do with owls! It's just a coinsident that it is owls! I think that the animaters did owls just because it animates better. Well truth be told... It is.

The animation in this movie is SO great that it enchants you! Although... It may become an issue when the movie doesn't give you time to absorb the greatness of animation! This movie didn't have a beginning! Or if it did... I surtenly missed it! It couldn't have been more than... 2 seconds! It dived right in to the story! You know what this movie had? It had "A beginning of the end of the beginning!" That's what it had! And it was very confusing.. Although it saves itself by the end when that is taken much slower but as I said.. All the time you're thinking "Wow! Look at the artwork of that bird! That background! That lightning! Look at those eyes! They really have evolved from the old times animations!"

That was what I thought the whole time! I nearly missed the fact that it was a movie I watched and not a serie of paintings! I had difficulties trying to put together the plot of everything but I think I had it right... And it got me thinking about Lord of the Rings. But with birds! When I first saw the trailer to this movie I thought it would be about a adventure about owls in their daily life. You know, that usual thing when they show you how they live their life.... It was not. It was a fearsome battle between owls we didn't know existed and they had learn how to work with fire and change the channel on the TV... Ok, not that last part, but you get what I mean. Lord of the Rings! It's put in front of you and all of a sudden it espects you to believe that Elves are hopping in the woods and something called Shire exists where little people jump around and lives like farmers.... You know?

But this was definitly an adventure! Something you don't want to miss! I espescially like the fact how they put the bad things in a battle. Not the good thing. That our heroes actually BATTLES and KILLS our enemies. That one made me go soft on the fact that nothing I saw in the trailer was true.... I live in Sweden OK? Our trailers about movies is 5 seconds short and you be lucky if you don't miss it! Half of the time they even forget to tell you wich movie it is! They just tells you wich day it has premiere! That's really fucked up! But... Yeah... I would see this movie again... When I'm not enchanted by the awsome work of animation.

But I'll leave it like that and then you'll see for yourself what you thought of it.

Bye bye now!

Oh! And by the way... You know that thing that the bussdriver from Simpsons say in the movie when the dome is cracking? That's pretty much what I said at the nearly end of the movie... Animation... It fascinates you!

"What? What's going on?"

The Princess and the Frog

That was a good movie! The villain was awsome! And the company probably knew that too because they didn't keep him off screen very long! And the colors they made for him... The trix... Grr! I liked everything about him! He did the movie! And I got to tell ya... This must be the one few movies from Disney that doesn't have a happy ending.

How could anyone concider THAT a happy ending?! I'm not gonna say anything more than that. But it was a good movie! If you haven't seen it yet... well probably you have since I think I'm the last person who saw that movie but still! See it! I'm totally gonna see it again! And... skip all the parts where the villain isn't in them.. He was so cool!

Now I'm gonna see another movie that I'm probably last to see first... Fantasia. Not Fantasia 2000. Yes I know I am a little late with that but I never got to see it as a kid. There was so much else going on that someone forgot to show me Fantasia. I missed it when it aired on TV and I didn't grow smaller. So I just didn't have time for it. Now I do. So now, while the night is still young, I'm gonna sit down and see it.

Good night everybody!

Just because of a Villain

Ok! Since I've watched The Nostalgia Critic I've been curious about one movie! No it isn't one of those he said was crap! This is one that was on his Top 11 Villains song. Already I've heard people say that I should check out this one because they thought it was great! Although I didn't believe them because this company have made me disappointed over and over again. ... Ok! I stopped watching their movies when they made a co-operation with Adam Sandler! But still! No I didn't see that movie but it was just the fact that they did a co-operation with him! That was a new low for them! So... Yeah... But as I was saying, I've been thinking about what he said about that and I also got a hold on the soundtrack and listened to the song, wich isn't that bad... And when I saw the clip from his website I was like.. Wow! This movie has a villain?! I have to check it out! And the villain had purple clothing, long legs and a slim body and a hell of a voice! So of course I need to check it out! Just for the villain!

I'm going to check out The princess and the frog. Tonight! So... We'll see if I think it is good. I don't have high expectations.. Ok! I have expections on the villain so I'll probably be disappointed, but still I'm going to check it out! Wish me luck!

Scary Machine things

I have no idea if this will make me look silly or if you'll think like me or... Whatever! But those who want to complain about anything go to another blog and stalk that for a minute. I'm gonna put this up anyway and I don't care about what you say!

I'm gonna talk about my possessed machine things I have had through my life! It's scary! And yet I can't live without my machines!

First, I want to talk about my old VHS... I don't know what you call it in english but it's a thing like the DVD but it plays VHS tapes instead of DVD disks. Ok! That one was scary as hell! And yet I kept on to it for like... 10 years or something! First in the middle of a movie, and it was Aladdin and the King of Thieves, I remember it clearly.... Ok! Not THAT clearly because I can't remember wich scene it was on, but! In the middle of the movie it had set on the Fast forward button! ... My control to that machine was on the other side of the room! ... How the hell did it do that?! In one second I heard the movie in the background because I was sitting in front of my computer at that time, and in the next the movie is silence and I hear the sound the VHS did when it was set on Fast Forward.... SCARY!

And there was this other time, same VHS, that ate my VHS tapes! You know that stripe thingy that the movie's on? It ate that! My Bartok movie was destroyed by that thing! But now when I have played it so many times it works pretty well. But still! Which VHS starts eating your tapes while you watch it?! ... And that stripe thingy.. I don't know how it works but I've seen the inside of a VHS while a movie was running because THAT was the only way to get it out! So after that I threw that VHS because... I think it was its way to tell "I'm done! I'm old! Get another VHS to play your stupid movies!" So I did and...

Well, it haven't been THAT much problems with my new VHS. But there was this one thing that made me never to put in a movie in that again! It ate tapes too! Yeah! But not like the other one! This was the whole tape! It said that it didn't have a tape in it. So I couldn't push the Eject button because it claimed that it didn't have any tape to eject! .... But when I opened the little door where you put the VHS in (I used to do that) I saw the tape! But I couldn't get it out! ... SCARY! And kind of panicking since I couldn't get the movie out!! But one day it seemed to decide that it didn't like to have a tape in it so it finally said "Hey! I have a tape in me! Get it out!" So I did and that tape is probably fine... STILL! Scary!!

Now we'll leave the old time and get to the little more newer thing. DVD! My DVD is the scariest machine work I have in my room. I haven't throw it out yet and I don't know why! Once it swallowed, literay swallowed a piece of paper! You know that nice work on a DVD disk that shows a little part of the cover on the disk? My DVD swallowed that! Since then it made MAD noises (my friends are witnesses) as it sounded like a old lawnmower who had got a cone trapped in the scissors! SCARY at first, but I got used to it and simply stop caring about it.

But the main thing my DVD has done and STILL do! A reason to why it stays off forever is... It's possessed!!!! Again, my friends are witnesses! This machine turns off and on itself after being turned off! I turn off the power to play on my Playstation, because they can't co-exist, and when I turn it on to play a movie... It turns itself off! And then on again! And then off, and then on and then off and then on and then off until I click the exact time on one of the buttons on the control that either put the DVD to sleep or open! ... SCARY! It's possessed! So I'm never gonna put that DVD on again and I'll continue to watch my movies on the computer! Which will be our next object of weird machines that I have.

My computer... I love it! I love it very much! But because it's one of MY machines it got to do something weird from time to time. For an example... The maps I have deleted are still there! ... But the computer maintaine that the maps have been deleted! Still I can see them right in front of me! They won't go away! If I went another way to that map that had those things, they weren't there.. But if I went to THAT map that originally had those things they were there. Even when I closed the window to those and open them again! Turns out it was just my computer who was very slow with update itself. ... OK...

Here's something I can't explain that happened to my computer: My Caps Lock problem! You know the Caps Lock that makes all the letters LIKE THIS... Have you ever have it reverse? When the Caps Lock is doing the normal letters and when you don't have it on it makes the letters LIKE THIS? I have! And I don't know why! It happened to me twice! But whenever I turned the computer off... it disappeared. ... Yeah! What the hell happened? Did I accidentlly do a code on my computer that made my Caps Lock do the reverse? I tried that! I pushed the buttons I was around when that happened and... Nothing happened. So WTF?! ... I don't know.. But weird was it!

So now we come to my mp3... You know the ones before apple released iPod? One of those! And this is also a scary one.. At least as scary as my DVD! My mp3 recorded by itself another song over another song... WTF?! I was sitting on a bus ready to play one of my favorite songs at the time, LM.C - Yasha Hime, and in the middle of the songs it played.. I have no idea! It had magically found a song I haven't heard before! And it was in japanese! It didn't have the japanese radio installed so how the hell did it came across that?! I don't know but it sounded like one of Kayas songs... But I doubt that.. Well, it did more "normal" stuff too, like one of Miyavis songs had been recorded over the next song in line... Have your mp3 or iPod done anything like that? SCARY!! And other songs it just didn't want to find at that time and didn't want to play them! After that I said "Good bye!" to my mp3 .... well not exactly I still have it in my room. ... Yeah... The next object!

This is the last one! I have more weird stuff but I don't think anyone has read all of this crap especially not with the silly comment at the top.. Anyway! I want to talk about my cellphone...s! This is a short one though I'm only going to mention two of them. One deleted all my reminders in my calender AND my saved stuff on the T9! ... We call it that! You know the thing that can make it easier texting by guessing which word you were going to write... That it deleted! But my phone numbers maintained! All my notes in that phone was deleted! I have no idea how! But it did! And I never used that phone again.

My latest phone, a touch, did some weird things too. The first thing that happened when I held it was that I couldn't even use the touch! Well, I don't know if that had happened to you or if it does to all the touch phones before they come attach to their owner but take a hold on this: My phone imitated my DVD by turning itself on and off.. Well.. It was the screen that went on and off, but as a touch phone.. You can't do much if the screen doesn't work! However, this only happened to me twice and again I don't know why.. But lately it has done good and doesn't record over songs like my mp3 so... I'm happy about it ^^

And that's my list on scary stuff that my machines have done to me.. Still maintain that machines can't think by themselves? You're right! But if you still maintain that demons and spirits doesn't exists... My DVD and old VHS will prove you wrong!!!

And it's still official! Kagi can't make a thing short!

Tears of relief for LM.C

LM.C are OK! Now I'm shedding happy tears! I'm so relieved! They're alive! ... I have no idea what to say! I'm so... relieved! *hugs them all* About an hour ago they sent their message on their Myspace page that they all were fine! And it felt like everything was going to be OK! But there's still the problem about all the millions of people who's struggling there. We can't forget about them! Hope everything turns out OK!

I'm totally blank...

I heard about it today... A huge tsunami is attacking Japan. Tokyo is very much damaged and people are fleeing while the water is swallowing pretty much everything they know and holds dearest. Families are probably breaking apart. They usually do when something terrible like this is happining.

Even though millions of people are suffering and panicing, I can only think about LM.C. As you should know by now, they are my absolute favourite band. And at the beginning of this year they've held themselves in Japan to have concerts there. To probably please their fans in Japan as much as anyone. On Mars 15th they were going to have a concert in Toyama. My hope is that they are safe from the tsunami and are alive.

I'm totally blanking right now! I couldn't remember my passwords! It's almost like I'm forgetting my name as well. All I can think about is LM.C, you know? "Are they all right? Did they make it in time not to be swallowed by the huge wawes? Why did they stay in Japan? Why weren't they here when this happened?" I'm pretty much crying right now. But I'm trying to convince myself that there's no use in crying though I don't know if they're dead. I don't know anything! Last time they wrote in their blog where in Mars 7th... This monday. This started to happen in wednesday, Mars 9th. But the tsunami didn't come until 6.46 am today, Swedish time, if I understand correctly. ... I'm totally blank! All I can think of is LM.C!

They were suppose to have a new single out in Mars 30th.. Is it done? Is it coming out in their honour? Will they ever make a new album? Will Maya ever sing or talk or walk again? Or is he just lost in the water together with Aiji and Denki and everyone? I know I shouldn't think like that, but... How can't I? I would think the same if my family were there! Wouldn't you? I can't imagine my life without LM.C... Without Aiji and Maya.. It would be horrible if they didn't make it. I would probably cry for weeks until I have no tears left if the worse happened! ... I'm totally blank... I probably have misspelled a couple of words but.. I can't remember.....

You probably think I'm overreacting or something like that, but... I'm not! LM.C means THAT much to me! And I'm worried! So worried that I feel ill... They can't die! They're too young! They have only made four albums! It's their 5th anniversity for Gods sake! They can't die now!

Complaining box

Ok... All right.. "We'll take whatever money we can and get out of here!"

In this post I'm going to complain a little so if you're not intressted in reading that... Move along :P This is about me complaing about my work with my new collection. I worked really hard this time to make you pleased.

This weekened, from friday to sunday I worked night time... and daytime. I set my own deadline and it stressed me out as hell. I felt that I didn't have time to do anything but draw. I didn't shower, I hardly ate, I didn't talk to anyone! All I did was drawing.

Friday: Drew until 3 am

Satturday: Drew until 4 am

Sunday: Drew until 3 am

And the last day I was drawing was Monday until 11.30 pm. At that time.. I had drawn the last thing on my "Peacefull". After that I lay down on my bed and watched Buffy (I know I should have slept but I wanted to relax and what better way than to watch Buffy?).

After satturday night, when I drew from 1 pm to 4 am, my body was hurting. My hand was cramping, because I held the pen in a very firm grip, and my legs where cramping, having them bent down in a sitting position in 15 hours wasn't such a good idea. I had so much pain that I couldn't sleep. I was dead tired and I was twisting and turning and couldn't sleep because of the pain. It was not pleasant! So think about what I do for you guys XD Just to get those drawings done and to get you pleased.

But even me. I put that deadline up and this doesn't have anything about I'm complaining about you. That you put a high expectation of me. The truth is I have no clue of what you think of me. Less who you are or even if I have people who look at my stuff constantly XD So again, this has nothing to do with you. I'm just telling you how much I do for you guys :P And hopefully... I'll gvet more fans that way ;P Because I'll do anything to get you pleased. Even if I'm lying at my deathbed I will draw and write. Because I love it ^^ And I love you!

Thank you for reading to the bottom! There is a cookie here for you! You can just take it! ... Why don't you take it? It's still here you haven't taken it yet. Don't you want it? All right. I'll take it then ;P See ya! Take care!

Sweet talking... wiriting

Hi! Now I'm writing here... Like I said...

I've been thinking for a long time now that I should write here but never did it! I have no idea why I didn't took my time to write anything of importance into this blog when I thought about it for such a long time... I foung another site to write it on. And that's an excuse even I hate so I'm not using it! Instead.. I'm gonna go ahead to write here!

I've got sleeping problems.. My nightmares are increasing in great numbers, fortunatly I think my phantasy is slowing down a bit and they don't seem as dark as they did in the beginning... So that's good, but I'm not breathing out yet because it could get back to bite my ass... Literally!

I even hade problems with my stomach. It hurts constantly! But I think I know what that depends on... Got a lot to think about...

But other than that I'm fine! After a lot of days passing, weeks even, it feels like my inspiration is turning back to me. Although I need to finish more drawings to my new collection.. so far I only have *counting* three.. I need at least four more! I don't know if I should work on the collection or the story first.... Hmm... Tough one..

And I haven't drink any Cola in a week! I'm dying for a sip! And candy! Meow!! Tomorrow is friday and then I can buy some! Yes! Finally!! COLA!!! CANDY!!

Feeling worse

Iknow, lately I haven't been so social with my friends. I haven't been so active on MSN.. or here. There is no personal reason, there is.. no reason for you to think that I've abandoned you all. I've just been keeping me busy. And I know that's my excuse everytime XD I'm sorry..

Yeah, I have been busy. Not just physically, I mean I have been working on several projects, my head is ready to explode with all these thoughts and my sleeping problems have come back.

Everytime I have a nightmare I sleep through the whole night, but I wake up sweaty and hyperventiling. When I don't have a nightmare I wake up in the middle of the night, super tired, turning and twisting just to get some sleep. So the sleeping problems is making me a little irritated because I'm tired. Also with my high fantasy... My nightmares are not to play with. I had one that came true and the other is really messing with my relationship with a special person. Don't want to talk about it! I'm just saying that this really is mindboggling.

Also I'm drawing a short serie right now for a friend that's not feeling very well. So I put very high expactations of me because I want that serie to be perfect down to every detail. Wich also makes me scared and thinking that she might not like it. That's that, and I'm also working on a small serie to my homepage, I was going to make one page serie, but now my mind gives me ideas for a whole story... So my mind is giving me pieces of scenes for this one page serie that I started with XD So I'm trying to block that while I'm struggeling with my sleep and my nightmares and every drawing I'm doing.

And then I have the story. I'm trying to get me my inspiration back to that but.. The only thing that comes to me is my drawings. So that is keeping me busy too and I also must finish my novels. I have two ideas for my next novels and I just have to write them. But without inspiration to write, I can't write.

And there's two more things but it's private. If you know me you can just ask.

My family is also nagging about me getting a job, and I know I must get it, but I'm doing what I can right now and I can't do more than what I'm doing.. So can everyone just stop nag! Please?

So... Can you now understand why I'm not so social? I've got... A LOT on my mind right now and I'm trying to deal with everything. I'm just hoping that my friends have patients with me and those who don't... Well, how can you expect me to have patient with you if you don't have patient with me?

I feel abandoned and used by a lot of my friends right now. It's probably why I put this up.

Hope you have a better day! Bye everyone!

Minna de.. Asobou

Sorry that I haven't posted here in a while o.o Don't know what came over me... Oh! That's right! Work :P Sorry about that.

Well.. I've told you everything in my homepage on what I'm doing... Also that I got bitten by my dog... And that I'm now hooked to Shugo Chara :P Yeah... Lot have happened but it all is written on my homepage and that's also a reason why I haven't written here.. I haven't got anything to write :P I know I haven't had anything to write in a bunch of posts already but... That has only happened if I was social and wanted someone to talk to... Now I always had been talking to someone and therefore my socialneed has been fullfilled.. I'm sorry.

I can't promise that I will get more active here because that is a promise I know I can't fullfill. But I will try to think, everytime I have something to say that doesn't have to do with work I will post it here.

Hunger talk

The weather seems to be back to normal again! Yay! You see? We CAN make a difference. Seems as the humans try to make the earth better is working!

I'm filled with very deep thoughts right now. It should be better for my writings but.. I don't know what to write. I want to write about disasters, scary things, you know like I use to. But, I already have. I need to write another novel, but.. My ideas that I have now it seems though I have already written about them. My novel collection is about different types of death. I have a art death, I have suicide and I have psycological death. I want to write another psycological death, I know exactly which one... But I have no idea how I'm gonna put it in words! That's kind of irritating. I know the ending, now I have to come up with the story... And damn I am hungry..

I'm going to eat now, but.. I'll be back soon!

Wakanai...

.. Wakane.. Hontou ni wakane!

I have no idea what I'm doing o.o I said I was gonna take it easy for a while, right? Well... This is all my projects now:

My roman (Still haven't come far but I'm more motivated now than I was before)

My novels (Still only have three, had an idea on a fourth but I forgot that idea!)

A yaoi manga (Working on drawing it AND a script to it)

Script for yaoi manga

Drawings (Don't have one in my mind now though I'm trying to block the ideas to concentrate on my manga!)

And on top of that.. I'm trying to learn myself Kanji!

As said... I have no idea what I'm doing o.O My brain works to fast for my body XD Oh! I forgot! As soon as the weather gets better I gotta shoot the clothes I sewed for Loid! AND I need to start on the script for the serie I'm working on with my Luts dolls!

So we're looking for resting in about 60 years or so XD When I get my penssion or something.. THEN I can rest :P

Guess everyone feels that way o.O It's not just me XD Well! Ganbare yo minasa! (Let's do our best everyone!)

Stress out work in!

Oboy! I'm done with everything o.o All that work I out to myself... Done! 2010 done! Damn! All that work all that stress! Now I really can relax! ... *falls asleep*

Now that all the stress is over I feel really tired. I allways do when I relax XD So half days I sleep but I'm up really late.. guess what's keeping me up? Yes! Work! I'm still working XD I've got a new project, one is coming up and I have my story and I still need to work on my novels. But I'm not that stressed anymore ^^ I'm just doing what I love. I'm working on a Shounen ai Serie, I have no idea if that is going to be o.O I mean.. My last tries at doing a serie has been a floop. But! I'm going to try ^^ I've done a little on the manuscript and I'm fone drawing the characters facial expression and now I'm gonna draw them as a presentation picture(I don't know if you get that but you're not gonna see them anyway so that's ok XD) After that I'm gonna start with the serie!

And yeah! Everything is done! So my site is active again ^^ I've changed everything! And there's new pictures and a new novel up ^^ And you remember that preview I was talking about XD? All is up! You should watch it!

www.lookforkagi.webs.com