Wednesday 30 June 2010

Galileo

Today it was windy XD Yeah.. It was blowing pretty hard, but it was kind of nice since we've had very hot weather here in Sweden for three days o.O So it was nice to have a windy day today ^^ I still went out in only a t-shirt, but I have my scarf so that's okay ^^ Wont get a cold or anything, I promise ;P

Bleh.. I hate working.. i don't have as much time to write my stories as I had when I didn't work o.o And that makes me kind of sad... I only have time on the weekened(feels like it anyway) and on weekends you're suppose to rest right o.O? Not work XD But still.. I write when I feel like it, except for yesterday -.- I wanted to write so badly and draw but I was too tired! I didn't even watch the ending of my movie, I was SO tired -.-Z
I want to draw o.o Feels like I haven't drawn in a month... but I did it last weekened XD But it was only a one day job and I didn't like that... I usually work with a picture for two days. I want to draw the picture that the man created in my novel "Difficult Art". And maybe put it as a background picture to my website (A) .... No, I don't think that's really a good idea.. Too.. brutal eh?

I want to continue on my AWITW story, want to work on the second volume because it will be SO great! And I got my critik on it yesterday(my friends thought I was weird for being do happy about critics XD) and it really made me want to continue writing on the story! It made me wanna do better and such! I've already told you about that I did that in only a couple of months so it was fast work, that's why it didn't turn out so great and I already told you this. So when I do the next volume I'm not gonna rush it, I'm gonna take my time until I'm completely satisfied with it. So you'll have to be patient with me and wait for the upcoming roman :P

I also like to write more novels, because they seem to be the only ones that is working :P Didn't get a critic on that though, only my roman and that was a relief, though I'm really proud of that one. Oh! And I have to tell you that I did not translate the japanese version for myself. I used "google translate" I only wrote the english version on my own. Just so you know :P I'm Swedish, not Japanese and I don't know that much Japanese(sad as it is, but it's true :( ...) Well.. I think that's it for this post. See you in the next one which will come up short after this XD ... I think.

88

The day turned out to be better than I imagined XD
I appritised my homepage on a forum(do you call it that in english too o.O?) and got many visitors at it XD That made me REALLY happy! I've never had so much visitors in one day that I had today XD Hihi! And I even got critic on my story! I'm really happy that I got critic on it XD It makes me feel like a real writer or something ^^ Hihi!

But first he said like it was too long! And I like.. Eh.. How serious is this person? (It was over the internet yeah) but I still wrote a nice "thank you" and asked him how many fantasy he had read before XD Then he said that he worked with littreture(have no idea on how that spells on english but you know! You can sound it out XD) and then he gave me a lot of tip on how I could improve my writing XD And I like, thank you so much!! So I'm gonna work on getting better everyone ^^ See you in the next roman of mine ;P

Liar Liar

Oh! This is just great!

Work again XD I go to one person with my problem, explain exactly what's wrong and she tries to help, she doesn't understand or something and gives me a sulosution that has nothing to do with my problem, and I'm like.. Ok! Is there anyone else who could help me?
So I go to that other person and he says that I'm gonna go to the first person who doesn't understand my problem.. I'm like.. What the hell?! What am I suppose to do o.o?

Taboo

Listening to SuG XD Yay! And looking at Tekeru photographs o.o I mean.. MELTING!!! He's so gorgeus! He is both beautiful AND cute! I mean, he got a smile that you could die for!! *love*
Chiyu is also kinda cute XD
And Yuji XP
Oh! What the hell! Everyone in that band is cute! ... Except Miichan.. He was kind of booring o.O I wonder why they kicked him out(or if they did or if he quit, I have no idea except that he's not in the band anymore) I've never seen so much of the new members so I can't really say if they're cute or not :P I mean.. I've only seen their backstage for "I scream Party" And that's the only one they'd put up on youtube except for Scheat.. And only half of that is subtiteled on english >< Right, I can watch it on japanese too, but like.. I wanna know EVERYTHING they're saying XD not half of it... It's so much easier when you have subtitle, don't you agree? The music they're doing is anyway fantastic! Although it doesn't suit for every mood, which is little sad. Like, they're music is always happy! (Plus the image of Takerus smile allways comes up in my head when I hear him sing) so their music only suits for when you want to be happy.. That's little sad.. Hmm.. But their great! And again.. Takeru is SO hot! And Chiyu XD Yuji is just funny XD "Teleportation!", "Kore wa nani? Ah, fashion check! Oh, yea yeah!" XD That's why I love him! Yuuuuuuuuujiii!!!!!!

... Off to another band(seems like everytime I write here it's about a band or my work o.O What kind of life is that?! Seems like I'm growing up -.- All you talk about is work.. I hat that! Don't want to grow up XD I wanna be the coolest mum ever who is young, quote Disney and stuff like that XD That's who I wanna be!) ... Okay! So now I got to a little jibbirish as well XD And I love the word "jibbirish". BUT!! I was thinking of LM.C(chocking I know XD) and it's a month before Mayas birthday, yeah, it's really a month! And he's gonna be 31 years old o.O I mean "WHOA!" He looks so young XD And he's gorgeus! Cute.. Well! I was thinking to do something special this year.. I always celebrate his birthday. Like.. I buy a cake and then watch LM.C backstage, videos and listen to their music everyday and like.. Loving them! This year I thought of going to the city and do a little tribute to Maya on his birthday, gonna buy like, party hats and one of those things that makes a funny noice, you know XD? I have no idea what they are called, but anyway! And I was thinking on have a stereo with their music on and was planning on filming it all too, and of course buy a cake (A) But I don't know o.O I'm kinda shy so I don't know if that'll work and so.. Was gonna ask people on another site and stuff.. like.. Have a real party for Maya XD Wouldn't that be funny? Well, I can try anyway o.O If no one want to do it, then.. That's that. Gonna try anyway ^^ Then'll we see! It's a month before that so there should be plenty of time ^^

Tuesday 29 June 2010

Ghost+Heart

I dreamt another nightmare last night...

"Difficult Art" by Kagi

(For translation look into www.lookforkagi.webs.com)

Kore wa sairento yoru da~tsu ta. Dare mo ga sudeni beddo de, bokusou-chi, amai kyoui no yumemite i ta. Rondon no machi wa shizuka da~tsu taga, kanzen ni tandoku de nokotte i nai. Anata wa se ga takaku, kurai, hansamu na dansei wa tōri no mukaigawa ni arukinagara jimen ni tage iyashi no kutsu, kuro, saizu 10, Aetrex Oxford no pea no chīsana ichi-ho o kiku koto ga deki masu. Kiri no toshi no hotondo o kabā shi, raito wa hādo-douri ni hikari o motarasu koto o kokoromi ta. Shikashi, sore wa hobo nani no mae ni mi ni fukanō da~tsu ta. Otoko wa sore wa riten toshite. Kare wa kono you na yoru, kiri to shikaku no nai hitobito to hanashi o, mattaku kuraku shi mashi ta. Kore wa kanpeki na yoru ikutsu ka no āto o suru koto da~tsu ta. Ikutsu ka no korosu. Hai, kare wa geijutsu no you na satsugai o mi ta. Kare wa kanpeki shugi-sha no you na mono da~tsu ta. Ketsueki doko kobore ta koto ga deki mase n deshi ta. Akushon kaiga wa kare no sutairu deshi ta. Shikashi, ichi-teki no chi ga kanzen ni nari masu. Karada wa, tokutei no houkou ni mo gaitō suru hitsuyō ga aruto kare wa seikaku ni dono you ni kare wa e o hoshi gatte dono you ni kare wa sore o okonau to shitte i ta. Kare ga jimen ni futatabi ire mae ni michi no yuuga na naka o aruku o tsuzukete kare wa han enkei no kuroi sutaffu o fu~tsu ta. Kare no kuroi boushi ga hikui kare no gaku ni suwari, kare no kurai me to kare no kurai mijikai kami o kakushi ta. Kare no hifu wa, kiri no you ni kagayaite i ta, kare no te de wa nai yuuchi ni mo chuumoku no kuro tebukuro o hame ta. Kare wa osoraku mono no, kare wa 1 tsu dake touri o aruite, ryouhou no kare no kutsu to kare no sutaffu deshi taga, tonikaku kare no shiawase o kubetsu dekiru oto o ubawa re ta. Shikashi, kare wa hontouni ki ni shi mase n deshi ta. Kare ga sagashite i ta. Kono you na kite i ta subete no yuugata, sarani ouku no you ni. Kare wa, utsukushii sakuhin o sakusei suru tame ni kare no saishin no sakuhin to no kyousou, sarani subarashii e o sakusei shi tai. Tatoe kare ga gimon, sore ga dekiru no daro u kare no saigo no e wa, masutāpīsu deshi taga. Kare wa touri no mukaigawa ni aruite, dare ka o hakken shi ta. Kare wa mite i ta dake ni, kono utsukushii yoru o kiite, kare wa kono shōjo ga kare no tsugi no gisei-sha ni naru to wakatte i ta. Sore wa chīsana onnanoko, kanojo no oukina doresu to bonnetto-tou ni ari,-kin wa kanojo no kata o tare rokku shite i ta. Kanojo wa kanpeki da~tsu ta. Kare wa sudeni kare wa sore ni kakete i ta dake ni kono e o okonauto dono you ni imēji o motte i ta ningyou da~tsu ta. 1, Chūgoku no ningyou. Kore wa kanpeki na sa rete i ta daro u. Kare wa kōun da~tsu ta. Mise wa mada kare ni dare ga sorera o baikyaku no chikaku ni oupun shi ta. Kare wa touri ni kaesa reru mae ni, sukippu no shoujo ni shitagau you ni na~tsu ta kare wa chairo no kami, bonnetto to bēju no doresu ni 1 tsu o eran da. No nai kangae to kanojo wa kare wa kanojo ni chikazuku to, sa re ta riyū o shimeshi ta kanojo no ningyou to issho ni kanojo o yūwaku shi ta. Kare wa mikata an kanojo o tsuzukete, onnanoko no me wa egao kanojo no maru-gao de me ga kuramuto akai hou to kagayaite ningyou no you ni kanojo no kao o shi ta. Kanojo no me wa aoi to shi ta kuchi ga chīsana sa re, ha ga kanpeki na kanojo no kuchi no naka ni suwatte i ta. Kanojo wa subarashii josei ni naru... Kanojo wa otoko o mitashite i naishi teita baai. Kare wa fuku kara naifu o toridashi, kanojo no i no naka ni surudoi ha o tsukkonde, kanojo wa susumuto chīsana sakebigoe o ageru iki o nomuto mimi o katamuke ta. Kare wa, roji no kabe ni mukatte katamuite, kanojo o oite,-gawa ni kanojo no kubi o kashige ta. Kanojo no me wa, haba to onaji you ni, kare wa sore ni nari tai, to hiraka re ta kanojo no kuchi mo hiraite, kanojo no utsukushii ha o hirou. Kare wa kanojo ga futatabi, nai mono o kono shashin de wa hyouji sa re nai no naka ni tsumekomuga kare wa fukaku, kanojo no naibu ni wa yori ouku no ketsueki o toru toki, kare wa futatabi kare wa ikutsu ka kanojo no zouki o tori masuga oko~tsu ta naifu o toridashi, naifu o okona~tsu ta. Kare wa kabe ni naifu de, kanojo no kanpeki na no mawari ni fusetsu chi o hirome, shinchou ni, kanojo no kata dake de kami-jou no nin’i no doroppu o shutoku suru koto. Kare wa ude o migi ni hiji, kirei ni katto, sore ga kanojo no ude de wa naku, kanojo no te doroppudaun o kika se yoko ni, kanojo o sakugen suru hoka no ude ni onaji koto o shi ta to mite sukoshi houhou-douri ni ishi no ue no chi no hirogari. Kare wa futatabi me o ue ni chūshi mada kagayaki o, kanojo wa kanojo ga ikite i ta to kanjiru koto ga deki masu. Kare wa naifu no sentan o totte, menoshita ni idou de wa naku,-me de, kare wa shinchou ni bi chousei ga deki mase n deshi ta. Kare wa kanojo no houbone ijou doroppu no tame ni sorera o teishi ga kore wa, yukkuri to kanojo no hou ijou geraku shi ta akai ekitai o sakusei shi mashi ta. Sorekara kare wa ketsueki-chū kara ningyou o, kurīn, soko ni kanojo no te to kanojo no hiza no ue ni sore o oku to, sore wa sou gaitou shi nai to, sore o hoji suru. Kare wa tachiagatte kou, kare no sutaffu o tori, kare ga modotte kare no e o jitto mitsume ta mae ni ikutsu ka no tejun o jikkō shi masu arui tashi, kare no sakuhin ni hohoen da. - Watashi wa subarashii yo. Kare wa furikaeru mae ni, mouichido hokou o kaishi suru kare wa hikui koe o jibun jishin de iru. Manzoku no sakuhin to betsu no subarashii sakuhin o okora seru...

Monday 28 June 2010

Joker -my name is-

Doesn't Takeru, the singer in SuG, have a dialect o.O?

Sunday 27 June 2010

Ningyo no Namida

"Sex for you"

Love that song XD But! Yeah.. It's from Buck-Tick ^^ I love them! Their music is just so.. Lovely XD I want their new album o.o!! And single.. Can't find them though... There's nowhere to buy Buck-Tick here in Sweden o.o It's really sad! Gotta order from internet or something.. Since downloading is so illegal -.- Really annoying! I want to listen to my music! Can't I o.O? Is it completely impossible for me to listen to my japanese music? Grr! Stupid community >.>

I'm tired! And warm... I wanna go home -.- And David talks a languege I don't understand! And it's really annoying because I feel so stupid! I'm gonna speak japanese with him from now on! Then we're not understanding each other XD Isn't that good?

The Midnight Museum 4

Here we are then.. About.. 20:55 pm a sunday evening.. I'm kinda tired. Have travelled today, sure with train and only 2 hours, but still.. You get tired when you travel! So shut up XD I've been away for the whole weekened and went to my summerplace. It was kind of nice. It's really beautiful there and there is a lot of nature :P The problem was that my battery to my camera was dead so couldn't take many pictures -.- But I've taken few of them ^^ Don't know when I'm gonna download it to the computer, but.. You'll notice sooner or later ^^ Well! What was it I was gonna say o.O? Oh! Right! Three things XD

First off I got the clothes from Odium today! My gloves and two shirts(really beautiful) and my pants(really sexy and hot!) and my shoes(that was REALLY unpleasant to walk in, it felt like walking on soft rubber XD) There was one good that was wrong, they had sent the wrong thing to me, but I'm gonna change it to another and hopefully I get to change it to the thing I want(to complicated for you o.O? Then don't bother try to understand it XD)

The second thing was that I've started to write a new story, entirly on english, a fantasy and hopefully a good and long one XD But I don't think that it will be pretty long actually o.O About the same as AWITW(Antoher world in this world) but I don't know if it'll be a second volume to this. Sorry, but on the other hand you'll have AWITW and my BL and probably my horse-roman to read so.. There'll be plenty to read so don't worry about that :P But tell me what you think of it when you're done so I may reconsider on doing a second volume to it ^^ All to saticfy my readers ;P

And third! When I was in my summerplace I had a HUGE desire to write on japanese o.o So I'll probably get on that one soon too. But I'll consider to send a translation to that text so you'll understand it :P And don't ask why I don't just post the english text right on -.- That's because I want to write and read on japanese and I like to share everything that I find amusing to all my fans ^^ It's.. something I have. I like to share things that I like ^^ That's who I am ;P

Hmm.. And I think that was it.. I miss ViiDee o.o!!

Tuesday 22 June 2010

EDO FUNK

I feel like writing(sitting in the job) Like.. A novel or something.. But I've never written a novel before. Can't hold it down to just 1 page o.o It's impossible for me.. I end up writing 24 pages.. Meow.. Oh well.. I also feel like writing something in japanese. Just because it's such a beautiful languege.. But.. It feels like no one would reed that one then XD Because they don't understand the text(I will not write it in Kanji just Romanji) so... Yeah.. It's just what I feel like doing right now. Write! So.. You know I would really fit for the author job right XD? All I want to do is write! I love writing, and putting me in another ones shoes and just.. Be whoever I want. I can be like Thane or if I want to be the Lord I be the Lord XD I have magic powers, so powerful that I can change the world ^^ Meow.. It's so wonderful to write.. I was thinking on putting just a small story on my blog here, but.. I don't know.. Would you like to read it? Mah! I want to write! Something about murder, something mysterious, SOMETHING!!!

You see how I become when I have a yearning to write, the languege is diffirent, the... doesn't the english languege have a word for "meningsuppbyggnad"? I like to use that word here and now. Yeah, that's what I want to do. That word would fit so perfectly in this.. Meow..

Soon there's Mayas birthday! Starting to think what I'm gonna do that day.. I think I'll be working but when I get home I will buy a cake and then watch "works" and videos with LM.C.. got to see Ghost Heart again. I've forgotten it o.o!! And it was a cool video, how the hell could I've forgotten it?! I've forgotten Punky Heart as well.. I have to look over it on Mayas birthday.. And I'm gonna go around with my.. Oh what's it called? you know this VIP pass they have on the concert? Well, it's like those but with pictures of Maya and LM.C. I'm gonna go around with those and I'm going to have my LM.C t-shirt and.. Yeah XD Just to say Happy birthday Maya ^^ Think I'm going to send a mail to their MySpace page also. (i got really sad when I looked over their MySpace page.. Like.. On their comments, everyone says "I love Maya!" And none for Aiji o.o Like, he's the one that writes in the blog.. He is the one edditing and everything like that! I mean.. What? Everyone loves Maya(Don't get me wrong I do it as well because he is so cute!) But still.. I feel sorry for Aiji XD I'm going to finish my drawing of him and then show to it to him so that he'll be little happy too ^^ He deserves it for all he has done and he is good at playing guitar o.o He really is!!! Can't imagine what it will be like if he quit LM.C and Maya had to get another guitarist.. like.. NO!! Aiji can't do that! LM.C is Maya and Aiji! No one else.......... except Denki XD)

Wow.. So many things about LM.C o.O Hmm.. *listening to Time wrap Real* This is song is SO good! like.. SHIVER!

Bye for now! ^^

EDO FUNK

Bokura no Mirai

My mosquito bite itches like hell ><

Well.. My parents are off for the country place and..................... My luts have been send out! I just got the message XD Hmm.. I wonder what'll happen this evening. I'm kind of scared of that o.o Gonna try not to think about it too much though. I'm soon going to work.. Oh I miss to be off from work. Gonna fight really hard to be a writer! Then I get to do the stuff I love everyday!

Bye for now!

My fucking Valentine

Sora

I knew this evening would suck! I knew it! As soon as I saw ViiDee's message I knew that it would bit me in the ass later the same day.. Well.. It did! I was SO caught up in "Il Gato Sul G" that my heart beat like a crazy drummer! And that's all I'm saying! "Il Gato Sul G" was really good, however! It didn't end as expected, but Riyu ended up with the good guy so I'm glad. Well.. Going to sleep soon.. Got to work tomorrow too.. Don't feel like doing anything right now.. I just wanna burry myself in my bed. But I'm sure that'll change.. My Odium clothes didn't come today.. I'll hope they'll come tomorrow.. I want my shoes!

If you're still continue to read this.. get a fucking life instead of redaing mine!

Myaki.. I'm really sorry for how I've been treating you. I feel horrible about it.

Laa Dee Daa

Meow.. Nemui desu! Watashi wa hontou ni tsukareta... Shikashi, watashi wa kinou neru ka. Watashi wa akumu o motte i nakatsuta. Soshite, watashi wa beddo ni kanari hayai dankai itsuta... Shikashi, mada watashi wa hontou ni tsukarete iru. Watashi wa shigoto ni narete i nainode, tabun sore wa desu ka.

Monday 21 June 2010

Rock the LM.C

Mihi!! I got a messege from the guy in Hong Kong! ^^ I'm kinda happy now ;P Even if he just asked "how are you doing" XD

My clothes from Odium soon arrives! They sent a massege yesterday that the order was sent! Ooohh.. Hope I'll get them soon ^^

Sunday 20 June 2010

Cosmology

I dreamt a nightmare again last night... Seems I've been having them more often lately....

Sentimental Piggy Romance

Weddings is the end. That's why I'm so scared of them...

Like.. In the fairytale everything ends with a wedding and "live happily ever after"... That's it. Unless it's Disney and it comes a suck up second after -.- But that's what I've grown up with. Weddings is the end. That's the way everything ends.. "Happily ever after".. It's so boring that it's nothing to write about.. Nothing to see.. Nothing bad happens.. Nothing happens.. I'm really scared of weddings because it means the end XD Like.. The swedish proncess doesn't exist for me anymore. She had her happy ending so now.. She's gone.

My life is like a movie so SHUT UP! It's better than your reality!

Saturday 19 June 2010

Bell the Cat

"But this does not mean that I want to be a vet."
"Who said you have to?"
"I kinda promise my mom that.."
"When you were how old? Six?"
"Five.."
"When I was five I wanted to be a cat!"

XD I love that last sentence. It's really funny! And that is from The Saddle Club - Greener Pastures part 2 ^^

Friday 18 June 2010

In my Dream

OK! I had a really, REALLY weird dream last night.. I want my Luts to come, the one I ordered.. So I dreamt about that.......

A weird big man had taken my Luts doll, like.. If it was in the mail and he the mailman he wouldn't give me my mail, you know? Well.. The light in this dream is as dark as a Tim Burton movie, but the theme is like.. Starwars combined with Alice in wonderland and Small soldiers.
I had friends and it was a girl that also worked at the "post office" (Just calling it that so you would understand) and who thought that what the man did was wrong. So she would help me get my Luts doll. The "post office" had like little soldiers who garded the mail and the orders, they looked like Pokémon and was as tall as the figures in "Small soldiers" but they looked like bies, and they could fly and everything.. And the "post office" had little ships that was flying around, you know like the one's in Starwars, ehum.. And the weapons is like in Starwars too.
So.. The dream begins with the soldiers from the "post office" have found our hideout and was starting to go to attack. I and my "post office" friend was about to get into the "post office" to take back my Luts doll. So when the bie-figures starts to shoot at us and we jump out from the hideout and get to the "post office" (Oh! And we're as tiny as the bie-figures.. but a little smaller, that's were "Alice in wonderland" comes to fit, because we have shrinked ourselves to get into the "post office", really stupid actually) But we get to the "post office" and as soon as we walk through the main entrence(the only entrence and it's a big whole, the enviorment reminds of Matrix in the reality world, not in the Matrix) all the soldiers and ships starts to shoot at us, but somehow we manage to pull through and I think my friend stayed back to handle the soldiers and I continue running. But nothing looks like a post office, looks more like a working shop where they make dolls. And my mind goes totally normal, like.. I'm not in a mission and I'm not hunted.. I flirt with a really cute boy who just stares at me and probably wonders "What the hell?" and when I saw that machines painted eyes on dolls head I wanted to paint too.. But after I thought that I got back to my massion and looked for my doll. And when I start throwing away Barbie dolls my friend comes back(and at this part we're bigger for some reason) and we starts to look in every drawer that we find. But then the man comes back from... probably the hideout destructuion, and just looks at us before he says "You will not find that doll." I became scared at this point like, Wow! That's him, we're SO screwed! But my friend talkes back at him saying that it is wrong to hold back my doll and he answeres: "Well, she didn't had to stand in the rain for half a year!" And then I wake up.

REALLY weird, psycho dream! And before I woke up I wondered why did the soldiers ignore us once we were searching for the doll in the drawers... And what did he mean when he said: "stand in the rain for half a year"? I have no idea -.-

Thursday 17 June 2010

~Time Warp Reel~

Oh! Here's some news!

I'm so into horses right now.. I am XD Like.. I'm watching The Saddle Club all the time! Well.. Not right now, but I've seen Season 2 part 1 two times since yesterday. The third volume arrived today so I'm gonna watch that after I 've drawn a little..

I can't stop looking at pictures of Tinker horses.. They are the most beautiful horses! Those and Arabian horses are my favorite! Well.. I've alse started thinking about writing a story about a girl and her horse.. Yeah I know.. Classic :P But still! If I did it about a guy he would be REALLY femanine.. So I'm writing about a girl ^^ But this is not going to be like Sherdil(swedish) like.. She rescues a horse from slauters or something like that.. No.. I've thought about it and.. Probably it won't come down because... I don't know so much about horses XD I've never ride or anything like that... But I'm going to do a little research and probably you won't be angry with me for not writing the right thing. But I'm going to draw some pictures on the two of them. Got two pictures on my mind right now. Hoping they'll be good ^^

So this is coming a lot on my mind right now so.. No BL story right now... I'm not in the mood for that.. And if I force it, it will not turn out great. So.. Be patient :P You still have Another World in This world to read. ... if you don't have finished it already o.O

Sunday 13 June 2010

Yellow Beauty

My whole story is now up on

http://www.lookforkagi.webs.com/

Read it ^^ It's really good!

In my Dream

Oh.. What a night... Well.. You know I was pretty fragile when I went to bed. I tried to sleep abour 8 o'clock pm. Woke up 10 pm, tried to get asleep again.. It was really hot! So I opened the window. Yeah! Then I got some sleep... about 1.30 am... Then I woke up again! About 5 am. Tried to ignore the fact and still sleep.. You can guess how that went. My door was knocking, or what do you say? Because of the storm outside and my opened window.. It was slaming and stuff(it was closed so it wasn't like that) So I went up from the bed and thought "If I just close it a little then door won't slam that much" So I did that.. Well the door didn't stop slaming and on top of that, a bumblebee flew in.. I didn't have the window that much open for a fly to flew in! So I'm like: "This is NOT true!" So I went up from bed again to get it out, that was easily luckly.. But then I shut the window so nothing else could happen! Then I went to bed and cried a little for not be able to get some sleep.. Although I was scared it would be really hot again. But.. Then I could sleep.. Woke up 11.30 am and felt that I would get a headache if I slept more.. So that's my night! How did you guys sleep?

I haven't slept good for the whole week...

Saturday 12 June 2010

Love me?

I have no idea what happened.. But Now I'm crying like hell.. And I don't feel good! It's hot, I'm tired, I'm dizzy, I'm hungry and I feel naucious.. Uhäh! I'm watching Nana.. But I don't know what I'm crying about.. I just feel so lonely.. I hate weekends! >< No one's here... *hug a pillow*

Space Wannabiez

Whoa!

Today started... not so good XD Stamped on my chafed foot this morning.. I happen to tare apart some skin with my nail... the shortest nail I got XD Sorede.. Ma.. I guess that's all what happened this morning :P Ite!

Demo.. It got better ^^ See.. I went shopping today. Since my story is finished and bla bla bla.. And I got plenty of new items ^^ Really good! Sorede...... I bought my camera! I haven't tried it yet.. No batteries -.- But I'm charging them right now ^^ Tomorrow I'll take some test photographies and then I'll see how it is ^^ Demo.. You'll have to wait before you see photographs from me. Sumimasen. Meow.. Now I'm pretty tired! Running in the city in search for things -.- really tiring.. And I forgot to buy something >< Really frustrating.. Have to take that some other time.

Friday 11 June 2010

Boon!!

Yeah! I'm gonna Bomb my blog with posts today XD Boon!!

But yeah.. I want to talk about my drug this month... Buck-Tick XD I say drug because.. I'm starting to get addicted about them XP But yeah! They're SO good! I love them! I shiver when I listen to them XD Like for their album Kurutta Taiyou, I shivered through the whole album when I listened to it.. All songs were REALLY good!
When I went to bed I had "Theme of B-T(By Naka Nozomu)" in my head. Before I went to bed I had "D.T.D(Darker than Darkness)" in my head. This morning... I can't remember which song I had in my head o.o Right now I got the intro of another song by Buck-Tick.. One from Tenshi no Revolver I think.. And I got the chorus from "Oriental Love Story"... XD Yay! One song that I absolutly love is "Muchi no Namida(Hot Remix #001 for B-T)" I love that song! I even got the name on my MSN name XD I just LOVE Buck-Tick right now.. I think LM.C and Buck-Tick are my favourite bands.. Hmm ^^

"Stay with me, you can't stay here"

I've found the joy with Google Translate!

Little Fat Man Boy

Meow.. The new tamplans are booring -.- No one's green >
Oh well! About yesterday.. A day when I knew ViiDee got to Hong Kong XD I was happy. Not that he went o.o No no! But I had a great day without him ^^ (God I miss him) But! No more talk about him XD I made some new friends ^^ Another guy -.- Another nerd XD And he's into Japan stuff too XD So I'm glad about that! Made a new friend ^^ Yay!

And I've drawn a little more.. Working on drawing eyes right now. It's really funny ^^ Love to draw eyes, but.. The eyes is somewhat better when I draw them small.. You know? Oh.. I wanna draw another picture on Mamoru o.o But I've second thoughts about the story about him.. If I'm gonna write it or not.. But that'll come some day ^^

And I was in a weird mood yesterday too. Like.. You know that BL I'm working on.. I didn't want to write it anymore because it was Americans that I wrote about.. Not Japanese... I kind of hated me when I thought that thought. So I guess next BL is going to be about two Japanese -.- Silly me...

Thursday 10 June 2010

My girl

ViiDee is gone to Hong Kong... It's really sad XD I'm gonna miss him so much! It's for the whole summer. But I have no idea when he'll be back. I don't know when the summer ends for him XD But still! He'll be back and that's the best I've got with a guy :P Lately I've been better with making friends with guys o.O Got two of them now ^^ Both of them really cute ;P

But that wasn't what I was gonna say! I was gonna say that I'm really proud of myself! I wasn't grumpy at him when he said yesterday that he was gonna leave today. I made a joke and everything! I made him laugh which made me really happy ^^ And that's a new thing for me. Otherwise I would've been grumpy at him and just get mad at him.. Not pleasent for either of us! So this is better ^^ So I'm really proud of myself! I'm getting better at short good byes ^^

I want a girl.. Who is cute and shy.. I'm starting to think that I won't find a beautiful girl like my ex. But I don't regret ending that relationship.. She was pretty psyco.. stalking me and everything.. Was mean to me.. But still.. I miss her sometimes.

Wednesday 9 June 2010

Tiny Circus

Wow.. I've been really good today! I've translated two pages of my story today instead of only one! Can I just say that I'm tired
-.-Z?

Well! The good news is that I only have two pages left to translate! The bad news is that I'm not gonna post them until sunday XD Even if they get ready before that.. Oh! And after that I'm gonna relax.. I'm gonna write on a novel I think.. I have some thoughts of one short story.. But I'm not sure.. It's just one scene that is played in my mind XD And it's really emotional.. Wow! I've got many emotional things through my head right now o.O Like.. The BL is really emotional too! Oh! BL = Boys Love.. so.. I got many of those things going through my mind.. But right now I'm really tired so I think that I either watch a movie or read some Yaoi(boysxboys) Maybe I see a BL movie.. Combine those two together XD ... No.. I'm not in a mood for that.. Well! First I'm gonna put on some socks! Been out in the rain barefoot XD Not a good idea.. But I have chafed foot so it hurts XD No I'm not gonna put on a bandate because it's waste of time XD ... I think..

Well! Now I've figure it out.. I'm gonna watch "Ondskan" a swedish movie.. Which is kind of horrible movie o.O And read yaoi! That's what I'm gonna do.. Oh well! Ja ne!

Monday 7 June 2010

BOOST+BUSTERz

Meow! I'm that... Social again.. Why isn't there anyone online when I'm social XD?! Like.. Meow.. That's really upsetting! Hai hai hai!

So I'm typing in here again ^^ I've posted new drawings today! Three of them XD Was gonna wait until the fourth picture was done but.. I don't want to draw it >< .. paint it.. Sorry :P So you have to settle for those three drawings in the mean time.. I'm thinking of continue translating my story so I can be done with it! Demo.. I think that I'm too tired to write on it.. So what to do? Probably read a little.. Or writing things on my wishlist (direct translate from swedish). My list on things I wish for to my birthday. I've thought about that list the whole day. Maybe I'll put on things there soon. I know that my birthday is in december(if I didn't I must be really out of reality) but it's better to start early when you know what you want instead of waiting for the last moment. If you do then you won't come up with anything that you wish for.. Well.. At least it is like that to me :P But the last year my mother complained that I only wished for movies for my birthday presents -.- That really pissed me off! Like.. You want a list of what I wish for right?! So stop complaining and be glad that I only want cheep stuff XD My mother always complains in what I wish for.. Like.. When I graduated from school she wanted to give me a gift. I said that I wanted "move out from home"-things.. Like things you need when you move out. Because: graduated from school, you're gonna start a new life in your own appartment and what better to whish for than a toaster or a saucepan. Right? She said: "No! That's not a gift for when you graduate! You're gonna wish for jewelry or stuff like that" ... I barely use jewelry anymore.. I have enough with jewelry! So with a sigh I got my toaster! I'm really happy about it ^^ But I wish my mother would stop complaining about what I wish for XD It's kind of irritating. Upsetting!

Days

Ok! You know I've mentioned the writer thing XD And translating my story and bla bla bla... Well.. If I haven't you can read it on my website: www.lookforkagi.webs.com

I've thought about one thing. Since I failed my latest deadline I think I'm making another right now. I'm working at translating the text right now. I've translated one page today and if I translate one page every day I will be able to get it done with for this weekend.. The whole story! So I'm going to try to fulfill that deadline so you can read the whole story on the summer or something like that XD And also for me so that I can work with my BL story for the summer, I got some really good ideas for it! And I'll try not to think of it as an movie when I write it and thinking of it like an book! I thought of "Another world int his world" as an movie while I wrote it and.. Turns out that disn't work. But it will take a while before you get this BL story on the net because I need to take it slow with it so it doesn't end up as a catastrophe like it did with "Another world in this world" XD (No I don't really like that story right now, but I hope that the following book will be better. It will probably be longer, hopefully longer, and not so many wholes in the story like the first one >< It's very irritating)

Well, why "Another world in this world" became such an catastrophe as I say is probably because I stressed out with that one. I was building my webpage at the same time I wrote it and I wanted to get something out on it as soon as possible so it was just fast work to just get something on my webpage. So.. Just endure that one and just get attention in how I write and not what it says so I'm hoping you will stick around until my BL comes out. But still.. I'm going to save "Another world in this world" with a second edition.. And the first one needs a second so.. Yeah.. I'll work my best with all of that! Have fun looking at my pictures in the mean time and have a great summer everyone!

www.lookforkagi.webs.com

A blueberry night

Urgh.. Well.. I got a little more sleep than yesterday anyway.. Like.. An hour or so.. Meow.. And my stomach is worse >< Still growling after food.. But! I ate brakefast for one and a half hour ago o.o I shouldn't be still hungry! >< I hate my stomach.. Should probably go to a doctor but.. yeah..

Sunday 6 June 2010

Z-man

I'm hoping tomorrow will be a better day.. I've been a Zombie the whole day today.. I'm tired.. And my stomach is being weird.. Gonna try to sleep so I will feel better.. Oyasuminasai minasa!

Haunted House make a Secret

Yay! What a weekened.. I've had better -.- *sigh*

Well.. I was with my friend.. well lets call her Rosuto. And she is a big fan of scary movies. Well.. So we saw Paranormal Activity, the movie itself wasn't so scary.. The ending sucked -.- But when I got home, alone in the house.. My thoughts started to imagine things and that made me scared. My own thoughts scares me :P I'm a writer so my imagination is great. I was really tired around ten o'clock and I wanted to sleep so that this night would end.. Yeah that never happened. I stayed awake the whole night.. Shivered by fear of what might happen, that was not fun. My legs twitched and I was really.. warm. Is it right to be warm when you're scared o.O? I thought you got cold.. Oh well! About.. 5.30 am it started to be light outside so then I started to calm down and got some sleep. So.. Six hours sleep in the morning.. Well.. It was at least SOME sleep. But now my head hurts and everything. Hoping that this night I will get more sleep. But my family is coming home today, and my dog! Oh.. I think I missed him the most since animals can feel those things better than humans. ... Oh well! ^^ Now I'm not going to think about that. Now I'm going to concentrate on my work again.vLike.. Continue translating my story and such.

Friday 4 June 2010

Polly Life

*sigh* Now the last person has logged out from msn.. This is a really pain when you're as social as me XD You don't have anyone to talk to. So I decided to write more here ;P Well.. I'm not bored or anything. I'm alone at home right now, yes I live with my mother still. *not sigh* So I don't have anyone to talk to right now. ... what was I saying o.O? Right! I'm writing here instead ^^

Well! I got as I planned! I got done with the translating of the latest posted chapter XD So I'm really... relieved right now. I can relax! But.. Now I'm having stressfull thoughts about what I should do now o.O I'm going to see a movie at the television in about ten minutes anyway so then I have something to do XD But.. Until then.. What shall I do o.O? I tried to call my mother to say good night so I don't have to be desturbed when the movie starts but.. She didn't answer -.- I think I'm gonna send a text messege to her instead. Yeah.. So right now I'm just sitting here in my dark room(according to ViiDee) and listening to Buck-tick(the music in Kiss me Good-Bye is wonderful!) and eating XD I told you I was hungry.. But candy couldn't make the hunger disappear >.> So now I took a bowl of Ravioli ^^ It's really good! It's pasta and tomato saus and meat in it ^^ Really good! And yeah.. I like tomatosoup XD If anyone would ask.. But there's very little I like to eat o.O I don't like to eat XD It's disgusting! The thought of chewing something and then swallow it.. No.. I don't like it. Candy is ok, come on.. It's candy XD But food.. No. I don't like it >< But it's needed so.. I eat anyway :P

Oh! And you can look into my story and my pictures here: www.lookforkagi.webs.com

It's a wonderful wonderholic

Hi! What's everyine doing XD?

Well.. This blog is about me so.. You have to shut up with your own important things and listen/read to my shit right now :P You don't have to! You know there's a button right on top where you can click to the next blog if you want :P But if you stay then I can provide wth cookies and a great story ^^

Ok! To cut the small stuff and go to the thing I actually want to say :P Right now I'm listening to some old songs from Buck-Tick ^^ Some songs I haven't heard yet, they're really great o.o You should listen to it if you like crazy music and japanese ;P I like his voice o.o It's really... different XD But I like how he pronounce the words, even in english! Like Secret Reaction! "Sekureto reakuchion" XD I really love listen to their music.. Thank God I started watching Trinity Blood o.o (That's how I discovered them ^^)

I try to remember how I discovered every band, but.. I don't remember a bunch of them o.o I think I only know Buck-Tick.. And Diru of course.. The first japanese band I listened to :P Thanks to Anette! So.. Thank you for being my friend so that I discovered all the japanese stuff XD Really greatful here! ... But I guess you aren't as greateful as I am :P Oh well! I don't give a crap about that XD I want to remember how I discovered SuG o.o And LM.C!! My favoritou band and I don't know how I discovered them! That's really frustrating >< But I remember most of the first songs I heard with the different bands.. I can make a list of them if you want XD .... *not hearing any protesting* OK! Then I do that ^^

LM.C - Oh my Juliet
Buck-Tick - Dress
SuG - Vi Vi Vi
Dir en Grey - Raison D'etre
Dolly - Nejimaki Shiki Taruto
Exist Trace - Maboroshii mado no kurayami no naka de
Gackt - Redemtion(Also Anettes fault I started to listen to them ;P)
Gazette - Toguro(Remember Anette XD?)
Jun - Atomic Smile
Phantasmagoria - Fairy times Memory
Kanon Wakeshima - Still Doll(Thanks to Vampire Knights)
Kaya - Walkure(There was this site where someone had that on their page)
Merry - Peep Show(I think there was this.. I saw their album in the store and I said to mother I wanted it for birthday present, hadn't heard them or anything.. just wanted their album XD)
On-Off - Ikusen no Nemuri no Hate(Again Vampire Knights XD)
Rentrer En Soi - Protoplasm
Tokomo Tane - Broken Wings(from Trinity blood again XD)
Malice Mizer - Beast of Blood(Don't listen to them anymore but a friend from school tipped me about them :P)

Well.. That's all I remember :P That is really fun to remember such a thing. I know that my friends thinks that I've got a really good memory XD

But.. Actually... That wasn't at all what I was going to say XD What I was going to say is that.. I'm writing a story. And I took a break before on writing it because I was really stressed out about it and I can't handle stress because then I shut down(probably that's why I failed school)but now I've started again and I'm translating the text ^^ I'm swedish so I've wrote it first on swedish but I'm translating it to english. The swedish version is complete ^^ So I'm really happy about that! But I haven't post the swedish version completely on the web yet. I'm doing it chapter by chapter. Like.. I'm posting the swedish version first in one chapter then I post the english version ^^ You get it? Well.. Since I took a pause there had been one chapter more on the swedish version. But I'm trying to fix that so the scale is even :P Only two more chapters to translate and post! Yay! But the story isn't so long, about.. 26 pages.. And I'm not sure that I like it. The characters got too feminine I think.. But I'm going to write a following to this one and I'm hoping that it will turn out better than the first edition. I'm going to add a lot that was missing from the first edition. I don't like that there's many loopholes in it. It's a lot missing from it. And I'm going to read it over and over again so that I can get as much as possible to the following edition ^^ Yeah.. So.. Hoping that the other one will turn out better..... And I must disappoint you guys but.. I can't post the other edition on the internet. To prevent stealing. So look out for it in your bookstore ok? :P

*sigh*... Was that all I had to say? I hope so because it turned out to be a lot o.O Well, maybe I'm just in one of those moods ^^ Urgh... I feel hungry o.O Maybe I eat much candy ^^ And this was a good song too.. Like the music.. Buck-Tick - Castle in the Air.. This songs are from 1988 XD It's really fun listning at.. And I REALLY need to stop talking right -.-? Oh! Sorry.. Writing.. Well! Bye for now! Gonna continue translating now! See ya next time!

Thursday 3 June 2010

Rainbow Magic Orchestra

Ooohh! It's raining! I can hear it through the roof XD It is nice! I love this sound ^^ Oh.. It stopped.. Too bad.. I really love rain ^^ It's so beatutiful!

Ok.. Now I've drawn for a while.. I'm getting tired.. And hungry o.O Time to go to sleep ^^ Oyasuminasai all!

Funny Phantom

... Maybe I should name my posts after LM.C songs o.O Like.. It says "It's a LM.C fan place".. Maybe I should do that! That would be fun! Depending on how I feel :P Yeah! I do that! Thanks for the idea ^^ *talking to myself*

... I am weird! Better to show it now than later when you think I'm normal XD Because I'm not! ... Then again. What is normal o.O? Isn't that.. What everybody else is/does? ... Maybe.. Hmm.. I really hate that question -.-

Wednesday 2 June 2010

New Buffy Episode!

Oh! I saw a Buffy episode I haven't seen before today o.o

I got this Buffy - the vampire slayer maraton where I watch Buffy all the time XD But apparently there have been this one episode I've missed every time. The fourth episode in season seven. I have no idea how I could've missed that.. But.. Yeah ^^ Not I've seen it! It was good :P

Welcome to Optimistland!

Hi there!

This is the first entrence on this blog. I had another but.. It was haunted XD Hmm.. I wonder how many gonna read this one o.O Oh well! I'm gonna write here either way ^^ Even if no one will read it. But I'm sure that someone will read it.. I think anyway. Whatever.

So! Here I am.. An LM.C fan, big one.. That's where "Optimistland" comes from. You're gonna here me talk about them a lot XD Woho! So.. Lets start bloging!